It’s been a while since I have taken the time to reflect back at my life. Slow down, take a deep breath and look at the sights. The birds flying, the sky blue The sun shining.
Today is my birthday and I have reached half-life.
Now that I have lived through half of it - It doesn’t feel so bad after all. I feared for much worse, I feared and to some extend believed that it would be horrible. But it turned out to be bearable, okay and even sometimes lovely.
I have finally grown up. I am what they call an adult now. But the adulting part never felt good. It’s the being playful and being childish and doing things without much purpose are the things I enjoyed the most.
Although Glorious Purpose is something I find myself to be drawn to. At the scale of the universe, we are just specks of dust on some pebbles but still. The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man's heart.
I hope a decent enough struggle finds me.
I pray to be embraced by a good death.
What comes after a time of peace is war and raging storms.
What awaits me is crisis and a desperate search for meaning in life. But I know I will not be alone in that journey - and that’s good enough for me.